Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Holy Shit Fits!
I had posted just yesterday and it had been some time since I really wrote and here I am today writing again. I'm writing so soon just to get it out, but holy shit fits! I believe I've just found another little "trigger" that makes me want to smoke more - Web design stuff.
I'm in the middle of revamping the graphics and minor layout portions of our fire department Web site and I am hurtin' for a smoke bad. I don't know if the cravings are this bad right now because of my recent cheats or my gray matter just hasn't experienced Web design and ignoring smoking yet, but for Christ's sakes, it can go away ANYTIME now. Either way, I gotta get over this feeling soon because I have two and maybe even three Web design clients to work on. NOT good.
I guess I better shove some cinnamon toothpicks in my mouth real quick. After lunch is going to be a bitch, I just know it and I'm only an hour away. *ugh*
Until next time...
I'm in the middle of revamping the graphics and minor layout portions of our fire department Web site and I am hurtin' for a smoke bad. I don't know if the cravings are this bad right now because of my recent cheats or my gray matter just hasn't experienced Web design and ignoring smoking yet, but for Christ's sakes, it can go away ANYTIME now. Either way, I gotta get over this feeling soon because I have two and maybe even three Web design clients to work on. NOT good.
I guess I better shove some cinnamon toothpicks in my mouth real quick. After lunch is going to be a bitch, I just know it and I'm only an hour away. *ugh*
Until next time...
Monday, May 14, 2007
That Was A Challenge
The challenge I'm talking about came late Friday afternoon and into the early evening hours. The reason being was a large house fire we had and needless to say, this is my first big "event" that's always been associated with smoking.
People think we're crazy, but ask any smoker out there who is a firefighter and they'll tell you the first thing they'll do after coming out is a light a cigarette. And guess what I wanted to do after sweating my ass off inside? You bet ya, smoke a cig. I even stood next to one of my buddies staring at his cigarette while he smoked and I said "Ooooo Bruce, me wants a cigarette!" and he actually convinced me I didn't want one. That is, for about 5min and then I wanted one again. I am happy to report that I didn't have one at all, until I got in the truck. Something about having that soothing cigarette after all of the adrenaline just feels right. But, again it tasted like shit and I through it out the window.
The rest of the weekend was just about as hard because I golfed 18 holes without smoking. Okay, I had a cigar. Nothing big. But then working through Saturday afternoon and most of Sunday was hard. Hell, I woke up Sunday morning craving one before my feet even hit the ground coming out of bed. Visiting with the in-laws was actually quite easy. Considering there were 3 smokers in there, I never really "craved" one. *whew*
Okay, now I'm just rambling.
Excluding the few I've had here and there, I have been smoke free for: 4wks 14hrs 18min
Cigarettes I haven't smoked: 686
Saved: $120.00 (i need to buy myself a gift lol)
People think we're crazy, but ask any smoker out there who is a firefighter and they'll tell you the first thing they'll do after coming out is a light a cigarette. And guess what I wanted to do after sweating my ass off inside? You bet ya, smoke a cig. I even stood next to one of my buddies staring at his cigarette while he smoked and I said "Ooooo Bruce, me wants a cigarette!" and he actually convinced me I didn't want one. That is, for about 5min and then I wanted one again. I am happy to report that I didn't have one at all, until I got in the truck. Something about having that soothing cigarette after all of the adrenaline just feels right. But, again it tasted like shit and I through it out the window.
The rest of the weekend was just about as hard because I golfed 18 holes without smoking. Okay, I had a cigar. Nothing big. But then working through Saturday afternoon and most of Sunday was hard. Hell, I woke up Sunday morning craving one before my feet even hit the ground coming out of bed. Visiting with the in-laws was actually quite easy. Considering there were 3 smokers in there, I never really "craved" one. *whew*
Okay, now I'm just rambling.
Excluding the few I've had here and there, I have been smoke free for: 4wks 14hrs 18min
Cigarettes I haven't smoked: 686
Saved: $120.00 (i need to buy myself a gift lol)
