Thursday, July 19, 2007
Web design - a trigger?
Lately a lot of my business has been Web site design and I've found that for some reason that's a big trigger for me. Why? I haven't a fucking clue, but it's nasty. I'd go so far to say that it might be my worst trigger since I quit.
The only relation I can make to Web site design and smoking is that I use to light up a smoke about every time I tested some new coding I put into the design. The smoke would just sit there in my hand and I'd let it drift up in the air as my eyes wandered the site making sure everything was in it's proper place. So now I chew on a cigar with a wood tip and that seems to help quite a bit.
The only relation I can make to Web site design and smoking is that I use to light up a smoke about every time I tested some new coding I put into the design. The smoke would just sit there in my hand and I'd let it drift up in the air as my eyes wandered the site making sure everything was in it's proper place. So now I chew on a cigar with a wood tip and that seems to help quite a bit.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
It's Not Easy
I could turn this into two different posts, but I'll just leave it under this one and keep it short.
For my first update, I thought I'd mention I went off the Chantix pill entirely around the 2nd week of July. And for the next two days I thought I was going to snap and whimper like a little child who just lost their bee-bop in the dirt. I kid you not, just two days without the pill brought back immediate wants and desires for the good ol'smokey treat. I immediately called the Dr. and had my prescription refilled, but I was going to change my dosage on my own. I had already done so by going from two pills a day, too one and a half and then one a day. So now I went to half a pill today and that seems to be working just fine. So it just goes to show that no matter how much I tout Chantix as a miracle drug, it's not quite that good. It's good, but not that good.
I've also found out that quitting for others isn't simply just taking the drug and *poof* you're done with the smoke. Just recently I've found a few friends who fell back into the cycle and are trying hard to get back to smoke free. I applaud them for going back to it and doing their best to kick it again. I also know of a relative who went from 1.5 packs a day down to about .5 a pack a day, but just can't quite kick those last few. I think he/she is going to get on the Chantix and I hope it works for them. So yea, quitting isn't just take a pill and you're cured and it's not easy.
For my first update, I thought I'd mention I went off the Chantix pill entirely around the 2nd week of July. And for the next two days I thought I was going to snap and whimper like a little child who just lost their bee-bop in the dirt. I kid you not, just two days without the pill brought back immediate wants and desires for the good ol'smokey treat. I immediately called the Dr. and had my prescription refilled, but I was going to change my dosage on my own. I had already done so by going from two pills a day, too one and a half and then one a day. So now I went to half a pill today and that seems to be working just fine. So it just goes to show that no matter how much I tout Chantix as a miracle drug, it's not quite that good. It's good, but not that good.
I've also found out that quitting for others isn't simply just taking the drug and *poof* you're done with the smoke. Just recently I've found a few friends who fell back into the cycle and are trying hard to get back to smoke free. I applaud them for going back to it and doing their best to kick it again. I also know of a relative who went from 1.5 packs a day down to about .5 a pack a day, but just can't quite kick those last few. I think he/she is going to get on the Chantix and I hope it works for them. So yea, quitting isn't just take a pill and you're cured and it's not easy.
